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May 28, 2014

So many paths to take. The Life of a Artist that Can't Make up her mind.

Hey Oddballers,

Tonight...well anytime for you. I want to write about something that has been affecting me in many ways. I am in the point of my life where there comes a lot of choices. What to do for a living? What to pursue in life? What I want to do tomorrow? What projects I want to do? What pieces I want to finish? and What I want to write about. Life in general is full of these kinds of choices. We as people need to be prepared for moments like these where we have to sit back and think to ourselves, "What the heck to I want to do now?"
According to the minimal amount of research I conducted, I have found absolutely nothing to help anyone.

Go Figure.

I guess that is the point isn't it? We don't know what our future will be. We know what we want it to be, who we want to marry, what job we want to have, where we want to live? It is hard, decisions are hard. I understand. I feel your pain. Trust me...I ride the struggle bus everyday. Sometimes it even gets me to question my own self worth.

Nonetheless, there is a decision we can make as people, "How should I react as a person to make my life less confusing?" The more money we have, the more we have to watch it and budget. Really, it would be easy to budget ten dollars, try three million dollars?? Yep. point made. The more worries we add on to our plate, the harder it will become to satisfy those worries with a SUCCESS or a FAIL stamp because, well, there just isn't time to cover everything. You have to choose one or two things at a time. Work on it till you puke, and then you'll know.

I really hope that none of you feel this overwhelmed about your future as much as I can get sometimes. Yes, the world is a scary place sometimes. YES, ladies and gentlemen it does get a little bit lonely in "single-ville" sometimes. Yes, career decision making is difficult. Yes there are so many COOL hobbies we can have. Yes there are a million obligations you have in a day. YES there are so many words in the dictionary that you can use to write. BUT this is NOT YOUR IDENTITY or SELF WORTH.

A Woman is Shallow if she uses a man for his money. How much money you have does not make you more or less attractive. I just had to get that out there...otherwise it would be another eight paragraphs.

Yes, I can't make up my mind with what I want to do in my field. It sucks, its stressful, but I take a deep breath, and I say to myself, "you will find it in time. Just love what you do." I try people. I really try.

It doesn't help that society is all about finding a career early and getting things FAST, like getting married is the same as ordering a soft shell taco at Taco Bell. hahaha. Love takes time and nurturing. Like a baby in a way. A mother probably doesn't drop off her kid to the neighbor and says, "You take him, this is too slow for me." LOL I wish we as a society could just slow down. I notice this in myself, and I try to slap it out of me.

I DO not need to speed up my decision making processes, and don't feel like you have a deadline for your life. Yes discipline is important. I am all over discipline and a bag of chips. But it is YOU that makes choices, not Google Calender. We all are guilty of forgetting Facebook Events...I do it all the time. Obviously Facebook doesn't decide whether or not we physically attend a event. So all the skeptics out there with social networking. REST assured, they aren't forcing us to go to events. Much love though :)

Rest assured what you do with your life, it 100 percent up to you. So take your time...calm down, and do things one step at a time with assertion. :D

LOVE YOU ALL, TAKE CHARGE of your lives :D

Oddball. :)